So like an idiot I just spilled water all over my computer desk, the floor, part of my keyboard, a ton of recipes and a few other things. One of those days ya know!
I was thinking this week at least 3 or 4 times; DAMN I gotta write in my blog. I sat there, thought about it...contemplated...and as you can see didn't write. Some days its hard, I say to myself; self...my life is not that interesting to have things to write about everyday, sometimes even every other day even. So I thought, well what can I do instead. Once a week is kinda boring because half the time when I get to the weekend I forget what happened on Monday and Tuesday. You know, that whole old age thing is kickin' in I guess. It's not like my blog has a specific topic, or people really care about my opinions on ______ name your news worthy event or topic. I'm also not a famous person who has like hundreds of people reading their blog everyday or have people sitting on the edge of their seats for my next insightful post.
I started this to be for me, myself and I...a way to get my thoughts out and written down, rather than actually writing them because I have terrible hand writing. When I had been writing at least 3 or more times a week I always found it crazy that my friends, parents whoever were actually reading what I wrote. Sometimes commenting, wishing me luck, congratulations or even asking for one of my yummy recipes. It feels pretty awesome that you guys take the time to read my little posts, so thank you!
I was talking to someone the other day and I was mentioning that I started writing in my blog again and that in one or two posts I mentioned that I feel like I not only let myself down with the whole weight loss thing but that I felt I let my family and my readers down as well. I had professed online in my own words what I had been doing and the obstacles I overcame and then just went back to my shitty ways. She paused for a second and asked me, well turn the tables and if it was one of your friends in your place would you feel let down that so & so had a slip up? I thought for a brief second and I said not at all. She kinda looked at me with one of those 'seeeeeee' faces. Of course I was like well ya, but still I feel bad. I guess it's just in my head that I know I let myself down in an immense way that even though I don't show it much the little bit I let people see on the outside is actually a lot more on the inside. By saying I let "everyone" else down is just something I do, I guess....who knows.
Anyway, back to the future of the blog. I'm going to continue writing and I want to do it more than once a week, so now I have to figure out what to do. Maybe a once a week "life" post, a once a week weight update type of thing, and then one or two posts about the cuisine that's being cooked up in the Bennedum household. Not sure...what do you all think? Please let me know. I'm going to still try and do the web cooking thing, its something that has still been in the back of my mind to do. It's just a lot of prep, thinking and time to do that. Of course I'm probably over thinking the entire thing but I like to do everything as best as I can. Hence why I take an extra minute or two to attempt to plate my food nicely for my pics.
Well that's it for today. I'll write again tomorrow morning to put up some music festival stuff, food from the week and whatever else pops into my head. Right now it's off to Kraemer's for some pool time and relaxation! Oh and I lost another 2 pounds this week bringing the new total to 6 pounds. I have to get on that exercise 3-4 times a week thing....
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