Well...It Is Time!

Hey blog, fancy meeting you here.  It has been quite sometime since we last saw each other.  Well, actually since last you saw me.  I've logged in a few times, looked at old posts, attempted to write something new, however it never happened.  You probably didn't even know I stopped by; that can't be true since I have to log in.  I know you saw me, I know you were waiting for me to write something down, waiting for our relationship to get back to where it was before.

It's been an interesting ride since I started this blog, one that I never would have imagined.  One that has had highs, and one that has had lows.  Unfortunately the lows are the parts of this journey that have defeated me for a short time.  Life is a journey, we don't know where our actions, the actions of others, the repercussions of decisions and everything in-between that will take us.  Which is one of the reasons I named you what I did. 

So...It Is Time!  A reference to one of my favorite movies of all-time; The Lion King.  If you've never seen the movie....you should!  But in a short synopsis I'm going to spoil it if you haven't seen it.  Towards the first half of the movie Simba loses his father Mufasa in dramatic fashion.  From that point on two things happen; Simba is forced to go on an adventure away from his home, away from family, from friends, from the only place he really knew.  During that adventure, he meets new friends, some old and he ends up finding his inner "king".  The other thing that happens is under the rule of Scar (his uncle), his home of the Pride Lands is laid to ruin.  No food, the land is decimated and his home has know become a baron wasteland of what it was before.  At the end, when Simba comes back home and defeats Scar and the typical happy ending starts...he begins his ascent to the top of Pride Rock.  At the bottom he meets Rafiki and gives him a big hug.  It is at that point Rafiki says to him as he points to the top of the rock..."It is time".  To which Simba finishes his climb to the top to reclaim is rightful place as...duh...The Lion King.

In trying to figure out what I was going to write my first time back, I thought...it is time.  Time to get back to writing, time to get back to a healthier lifestyle, time to stop my bad habits, time to learn from my mistakes, time to begin the journey once again.  The first thing that popped into my head was...hey, that's what Rafiki says to Simba at the end of the movie.  And I do love my metaphors.  Having lost my mom kinda sent me down a path I thought wouldn't happen for at least another 20 years.  That path was riddled with sadness, anger, self destruction, worry and some happiness.  Name your emotion and at some point I probably felt it, had it, did it...whatever.  My Pride Lands where totally destroyed.  I forgot who I was, what I needed to do, neglected myself because I really didn't care.  I didn't care so much that I nullified the weight loss that I had worked so hard to achieve.  To help myself, I went to therapy for a good amount of time.  I learned a lot of things about me, who I was, what shaped my inner and outer self during the years.  Demons that had been eating away at me from the inside since I was a little kid, to the death of my "rock", my mom.  I was a definite naysayer when it came to therapy and things like that.  However that impartial third person or alternative point of view was refreshing, and it enabled me to look at my life, how I handle situations in a different light.  The therapy gave me some different coping mechanisms as well; tools that I will use now and in the future.

So...it is time!  I don't know how much I'll write to you old friend, I don't know who will read you, but it's good to see you again.  One funny thing I got out of not writing was the interesting amount of people that actually read my words and how many were sad (well maybe not sad), but wondering why I wasn't writing and would hope I would again.  Time heals slowly and I now feel I'm in the right place to begin this journey again.  I can't let myself hinder my past achievements and my future ones as well.  Baby steps will get me to where I need to go, no matter how slow the process may be.  So friends reading this or whoever...give me your advice, your story, your criticism, your knowledge!

Well that's all for tonight...we'll chat soon!